I am trying to make everything from scratch once again. While on the one hand I love the feeling of being able to make healthy nutritious meals for the family, on the other hand, the other way is easier in certain aspects. For example it is easier to pop a gluten free dairy free pizza in the oven verses hand making a gluten free dairy free lasagna like we had for Friday night. Also some of the recipes get met with more resistance. Friday nights lasagna used eggplant and zuchinni for lasagna noodles. My son complained and complained about the eggplant and how gross that he thought it was. It took him FOREVER to eat it. Honestly I thought it was delicious. My husband thought it was good. It had sauce mixed with some spices. Then layer with the cheese was chopped cauliflower, some organic non GMO tofu (I only use this occasionally), nutritional yeast and spices. It was topped with mushrooms, olives, spinach.... This was so delicious. I also made a fantastic blueberry pie. Both kids turned their noses up at it, until the next day when there were no pre-packaged snacks that they could have. Then they decided they wanted some. I ate the last piece. I had asked them if they wanted it. They said no. Well then my son got upset because I had eaten it.
The other transition we have made is that I personally have gone back to vegan. The kids are vegetarian. I still use eggs to bake into some of their items. But it does leave you feeling a lot lighter, not the heavy full feeling you might get with eating other foods.
Part of me is wishing that I had never allowed the processed foods into our house! What was I thinking!!!??? I don't know. I know why I did. I was overwhelmed between school and then my husband being gone all the time. AND having 4 kids here, and having to stay on top of all the house work, laundry, home duties, etc. I just lost all drive and it was easy for me to slip into the pattern of what would be the least amount of effort for my already taxed brain.
This last year was also spent pondering what was really best for me, my kids, my family. Yes I realize that I can not dictate or influence what my husband or stepsons will eat when they are not here, nor do I want to. I do hope I can help them to have good and healthy choices available while here though. The same for my own children. I spent a couple of years listening to what other people thought would be best for my children. I did my best to try to follow their recommendations, honestly part of that was because of all the food sensitivities that cropped up and issues we were having. But ultimately those issues still come from my childrens father feeding them gluten and dairy which they ARE allergic to and that tail spinning and causing a host of other issues. It had nothing to do with what I was doing. They were healthy the whole time I was married to their father, it was not until I divorced that they started having issues. But I lost my confidence for a season. So I spent this last year really evaluating WHAT is important to me. HOW do I want my family and children to eat. What is going to be ultimately best for us overall. And I have figured it out or at least came to a happy place for the time being.
So while I wish I had not opened pandoras box, especially for my kids and myself. Hopefully with their interest in learning and cooking now we can together come up with some fun things that they would enjoy eating and find some new favorites and share them with you! And they can own it themselves and not have it be something their mom is "making" them do. Ultimately I do want them to care as well about what they put into their bodies and the quality of food they eat and the other lives they may impact by their food choices.